What's on my mind

Woot. 180 days of Hell are over and now it's summer time. Yay. Time for TV Re-runs and a lot of gaming to do. Hopefully I can fit in some trips to Great America and Six Flags. :D

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a while... I've been busy with school and projects -__-. So yeah, maybe I'll start updating this thing more over the summer when I don't have school and stuff to worry about.

What have I lost that I wish I still had? Well, there are tons of things that I could name, but right now there seems to be only one thing. Lately... I dunno. I've been feeling a little more down than usual. Something is missing in my life. And I know exactly what it is. Well, I dunno how to put it but one of my friends hasn't really been around, and I haven't had a chance to talk to them. Either in person or online. It seems every time I leave them a comment on MySpace or a wall post on Facebook, they just ignore it. It makes me kind of sad. I wish that they'd reply back; or read it at the most. I dunno. I think I'm going crazy. D:

EDIT:
So yeah, I was talking to Maria earlier. And some things popped into my mind which I find true (a lot of you will probably also find this true). So I was talking about how my life is already screwed up as it is. And I think that I should have a little fun with it while I can. It was like today during English, I had a reading quiz on Huckleberry Finn (which I didn't read...), and half the questions (more like 80% of them) I didn't even know the answer to.

Q: "What did they do with the money they found?"
A: "They bought a bunch of drugs and got high."
Q: "Who did Huck encounter at the beginning of Chapter V?"
A: "Jesus. Like, Jesus Jesus."

You see, I already knew that I was doomed to fail this quiz and I thought to myself "hell, I might as well have a little bit of fun with it". And that is exactly what I did. Well, here's my advice (take it if you would like). If you know you're already doomed and there's no way this event that you are hoping for is going to happen, have a little fun with it. Like... you're late to school. Why rush? I mean, getting there faster isn't going to change the fact that you're still LATE. Have some fun. Go get some breakfast or go get some more sleep. So yeah, I just wanted you all to know my little bit of advice.

I HAVE MY 360 NOW!! :D I'm super happy. Now all I gotta do is save up for Rock Band! Yay!

Hey guys, I've been pretty busy for the past week. Just a week ago was Junior Prom (which was fucking awesome), and this week is Spring Break (which is fucking ruined). So, lemme go into details about Junior Prom. The limo we had was pretty cool, it was just a little crowded. It was like a 30 minute ride to Palm Event Center in Pleasanton. The place was HUGE. We got in line to get in pretty early so the wait wasn't too bad. Pictures was taking a while though, and then came food. Oh man don't even get me started. That food was so good that I ate too much. Oh well, it was totally worth it. As for the dancing part, they played "Sandstorm"! Holy crap, they played techno. Meh, if I were DJing it it would've been a LOT... better I guess you could say. For the rest of the night all they played was hip-hop and rap, and a few slow songs. Ehhhhh oh well. Anyways, I've been drawing lately ( www.sockpuppetninja.deviantart.com for those of you who want to see my drawings) and yeah. My Spring Break was ruined from day one. Why you ask? Because both of my parents took the whole week off to spend time with me, when I don't even want to spend time with them. And they make me get off the computer at ridiculous times (like 8:30 PM) which is complete bullshit. I mean come on, it's break; I'm meant to stay on the computer late and sleep in. That's the whole point of break. Whatever, I'm just sort of happy break is almost over so I can get back to school and stuff.

On another note, I tried streaking my hair last Thursday. It didn't turn out so well because the damned bleach didn't work, so Elisa and I ended up just using the dye. You can slightly see the color in my hair if you're up close but from far away you can't tell the difference. For those of you who are wondering "What color?" it's red, dark red to be exact. But on Tuesday I went to Walmart to buy more dye and I found some actual red. So now all I need is some bleach that works and then have Elisa come over again to help. :D

It's been a while, huh? Well, nothing new has really  happened. Same old boring stuff. Well, except for the fact that Spring Break is coming up this Friday (which is also Junior Prom =], which I am going to). Well, today my family had a party for my sister's and my birthday (even though my birthday isn't until April). So yeah, about the whole xbox 360 thing, I'm about $80 away from buying one :D Argh, then I have to save another like... $180 for Rock Band. Goddammit. Oh well, I still haven't gotten presents from my dad's side of the family (which is HUGE). So yeah, that's about all I have to say for right now.

The last thing I was grounded for? Bad grades. *sigh* It's like this all the time. Math always seems to kill me and my GPA.

Ugh, anyways this past Saturday I took the SAT Reasoning test. It was boring as hell. Sitting in a class room for 4 hours, thinking, and bubbling bubbles is not my idea of a Saturday. Oh well, at least I got it over with. I just hope I did well (as in at least 1500+). -__- Anywho, yeah, I'm pretty bored right now.

On my Rock Band situation, I think I'm going to ask for an XBox 360 for my birthday and then I will buy Rock Band from Target. Sounds like a pretty good idea, eh? Well, back to homework.

So, I've been studying for SATs for the past 2 weeks. Ugh, it's this Saturday. I seem pretty well prepared, I just need to brush up on the vocabulary. I took the practice SAT on the past Saturday, full length. Essay, and all nine other sections. Fuckin' 4 hours sitting in a goddamned desk. The only good thing was there were a few of my friends who took it, so it's all good :p Hmm... As for being grounded, it still sucks. Yeah, I still play games, but now I just can't play them as long and at night >_> Well, I have to get back to studying, so yeah. Later.


EDIT:
Well, I just found my Target gift cards. And to my surprise, I have $90 in gift cards, and I have about $70 at home. So... I have enough to buy Rock Band. I'm so happy! xD The only thing is I don't really know if Target still has them in stock. I checked online earlier at www.target.com and it said it was "sold out". But, hey, I'm still glad I can afford it. *sigh* I just have to wait until it comes in stock at the store... Actually, it could be at the store already. Hmm...

So, I'm grounded. Reason: I got a D+ in Pre Calculus. Why you ask? Because: 1. I suck at math. 2. I hate math. 3. The final was based on the hardest chapter that we had gone over in the semester, and everybody in my class failed it.
So... I now have restrictions on everything.

Restrictions:
Get off the computer by 10 PM every night. [Hella gay.]
If I'm staying on past 10 PM I have to give a reason why.
No music while doing homework. [Wtf, music is like oxygen, I need it to survive.]
No more games on the computer [I still have them though, just on my external.]
No going online on weekends unless I have homework. [Wtf, it's the fucking weekend.]
I got my iPod taken away. Both of them. I bought myself a 30GB iPod video, and my dad already took that one about.... 6 months ago. As of right now, I have my old one (4GB nano 1st generation) which has a cracked screen and about 45 min-1 hour battery life. So yeah, my dad took that one too.

So basically, as of now until whenever my dad decides to un-ground me, my life is going to be hell. *sigh* This is going to be a long semester... Well, maybe I can get un-grounded if I show my dad that I'm improving in math (which I am right now). Hopefully I can keep my grades up.

I'm having a little bit of writer's block right now. I'm supposed to be doing my English essay, but I can't really think of anything to write for it. I need to clear my head. So i was kinda saw this "writer's block" thing and so now here I am, filling it out.

Soooo... What did I dream about last night? Quite a couple of things. It ranged from like cars to fighting a horde of undead.

First dream: My friend Norman got a brand new car. So we were at this cafe place eating dinner with a few friends. I needed a ride home and he told me "Hey Matt, I just got a brand new car. Check it out". And he showed me a picture of it. It had rocket launchers on it (don't ask, it's a dream). So I was like "Awesome!" So after dinner, he tells me it's parked across the street. For some reason, there was no crosswalk for a few blocks. Being the lazy punks we were, we decided to jaywalk. Upon that, we started running across the street, but at this time it was pitch black outside, and there were no street lights (smart huh?). So, we were running across the street and all of a sudden we see a car coming. I'm like "Oh shit!" and I jump out of the way. I hear the screeching of the brakes, and then I hear a thud. I said "Fuck, this isn't good.", and I see Norman, lying limp in the street. The driver got out of his car and started shouting at me "Hey you fucking retards, stay outta the street! Learn how to cross the street properly!". I ignore his obscenities, and pick Norman up, carry him over to the sidewalk and call 911 for an ambulance. It was then that I looked down at Norman, and I saw him bleeding everywhere. I start to apply pressure to all his wounds and I started wondering where the hell that ambulance was and when it was coming. And then... I woke up.

After the first dream (or should I say nightmare) was over, I fell back asleep. I then found myself with a bunch of my good friends... fighting zombies. Seriously, don't ask me how I come up with these crazy dreams. They just come to me out of nowhere. Anyways, we were fighting zombies. It was pretty crazy. Let's see... There was: Me, Ryan, Stephanie, Chang, Anne, Raymond, Elisa, Geoff, Josh, and Nick. I had an AK-47, Ryan an M4A1, Stephanie, Chang and Anne all had sawn-off shotguns, Raymond had a machine gun, Elisa had a rocket launcher, Geoff had a sniper rifle, Josh had a flame thrower, and Nick had a grenade launcher. Seriously, what the hell is up with this?? -__- Okay, so we're like all in a Hummer. Stephanie is driving, Josh has his flame thrower nozzle sticking out the window, Ryan's in the passenger seat, I'm standing out of the sun roof, Raymond out the other window, and Geoff's in the back with Nick, Elisa, Chang, and Anne. So Steph is going down the street at about 15 mph. The zombies see us right away, and start coming towards us. So here I am, sticking out of the sun roof, am picking off zombies with my AK-47. I'm blasting their heads off and whatnot. Josh is just incinerating all the zombies that get near us, and Ryan is helping me pick off the zombies. All of a sudden Elisa fires her rocket launcher into the crowd of undead. I see body parts fly everywhere, and I duck back down inside the car. Nick launches a grenade into the crowd for good measure and we drive off. We get to a "safe point" and get out of the car. We get inside our barricade, and start unpacking all of our supplies. Chang and Anne are outside on watch, when more zombies come. They start firing their shotguns and run inside. Me, Josh, Ryan, and Raymond go out to exterminate them. Raymond unleashes a storm of lead upon them. Unfortunately, he doesn't really kill that many. So Josh starts burning all those that come near us. He runs out of fuel. -_-; He and Raymond go back inside to get more ammunition, so it's up to me and Ryan. We start killing, and all of a sudden we hear sniper rifle fire. It's Geoff! He's out on the roof across the street sniping them. Phew, saved. x__x Then, out of nowhere, Geoff gets bitten. I pause in firing, and aim up to kill the zombie and unfortunately, Geoff. I fire a few rounds, killing both. Nick comes out, blows up the zombies in front of us, and then Elisa comes, and blows up the building across the street. Out of nowhere, like, a gigantic swarm of zombies come. We've been overrun. Damn. We start to run, no time to get in the car. Everybody but me, Josh, and Raymond are bitten. Josh throws his tank of fuel at the zombies, and I fire. Big explosion. We keep running. Raymond trips. He gets eaten. It's just me and Josh now, running for our lives. And then... I wake up again!

Yeah, I've been having some pretty crazy dreams lately. I don't know what it is, maybe it's something I'm eating before I sleep, maybe it's what I'm reading or watching. It's kind of weird. Maybe I should watch what I eat/watch before I sleep... -_-;;

I am so boooooooooored. There's nothing to do, and I'm wasting a perfect Saturday night. I could be out with friends, watching a movie, hanging out, or something fun. But instead, I'm here at home in front of my computer. Doing what? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Except talking to a few friends, playing a few really shitty flash games.

I kind of want to go back to playing MapleStory, but nobody is really on. For those of you who do play, go ahead and add me: chin3sematt [Level 44 Bandit]. My server is Bera, so don't bother adding me if you're from any other server. If you do, go ahead, keep trying to add me. I'll just laugh at your stupidity and stop talking to you.

Hmm... I've been playing Guitar Hero 3 lately. I've gotten pretty well in the past two months, and I can now play on Hard mode (go me!). Oh yeah! I got to play Rock Band last Monday. OMG. I love that game. I am a kick ass drummer (even though I can only play on Medium. First time playing, too). Well, now I kind of want to go out and buy an XBox 360 just for Rock Band. But that seems like a waste of money. 'Cuz a 360 is like... what? $300-$400? And Rock Band is about $150. Sadly, I'm broke. Well, not really, but I'm trying to save up my money.

Gah, SAT's are in 2 weeks! T_T I've been studying my ass off, and my dad still continues to get on me for it. It's really important to me that I do really well on this test, but I have some self-confidence problems x__x Well, my first goal is to get about 1800-1900. From there, I plan to work on getting about a 2000-2100. If not even better, I plan to get a 2100-2200ish. But I doubt I could get that. See? I have self-confidence issues. Gah, I just want to do well, get to Senior year, get into a good college (Davis, CalPoly, Irvine, etc.), and get the hell out of here. *sigh*

Okay, I know it's kind of weird posting a journal twice in one day, but yeah. So, my dad is just pissing me off so much lately. I don't know why he does it but I'm getting tired of it. He'll come in while I'm doing homework, and start asking me random questions. I respond with a "bad attitude" and he lectures me about some random bullshit for 20-30 minutes. This not only stops me from doing homework for 20-30 minutes, but it pisses me off so much I decide not to do homework for the rest of the night. I don't get it. Maybe he's just out to piss me off because he thinks it's fun... Like 10 minutes ago, he was telling me about some stupid shit that Chang isn't going on our SoCal trip (college viewing). How the fuck would he know? He hasn't called her parents yet, so I think he needs to shut the fuck up. Jeez. Now I'm all pissed off.

Wow. I haven't been on this thing in forever. So, I decided to make a LiveJournal. Haha. Well, that's about all I have to say for now.